Ethereal boy,
you would kill me with a feather
fine-sharpened to a point,
intended for my heart,
and you would call it art.
Dreams as Fertile Fields of Meaning
This poem, like many of my writings, came from a dream. In the dream, an artist acquaintance from overseas comes to visit me, spending only a brief time with me in O’Hare airport. Then he wanders off. I later read an interview with him in a snippet of newspaper that says that he planned to approach me for a film, which explained the brief interlude. It also said he considered, for the same movie, throwing a feather, quill sharpened into a dart, at my back, and if it killed me, it would be art.
Dreams are symbolic, so I woke up doubting that said acquaintance had any desire to kill me, nor could he kill me with a quill pen. As that was what he described the murder weapon as.
Gestalt Dream Analysis
Because I found the dream poetically compelling, I interrogated it using Gestalt methods, which basically instruct the dreamer to tell the story from the viewpoint of all the major people and objects:
- Me: You know my part.
- The artist: I play with images, I play with image. I play this scene with you, and I will not tell you why. I could stab you with this feather; fear not, it’s all illusion.
- The feather: I am a pen; from me ideas flow. I am an arrow; Cupid does not miss.
- The paper: There are no secrets. I announce success
- The airport: I am the place where people cross, where people greet and part, the resting place between journeys.
- The journey: my journey of being a writer
- The artist: my inspiration/an established artist/personification of mischief/Cupid
- Cupid: ludus (crush energy) as vehicle for inspiration
- Brief interlude: a surprise
- The newspaper: He’s arrived; I have not. Also, an implication that I have importance, but as a abstract concept
- Feather pen as weapon: Cupid’s arrow, creativity, ludicrousness (see ludus); vague sexual reference but lazily so
