A Cat, of Course

If you had to be an animal for a week, which one would you be and why?

If I had to be one animal for a week, I would choose a cat. I have three of them, so I have been taking notes on their lives, and they have it pretty good.

My cats are privileged. They live in a house, are well-fed, and get petted a lot. Chloe, in particular, is my personal barnacle, being attached to me any time I am in the living room. Chuckie prefers Richard, and Pumpkin Spice Latte prefers whoever isn’t busy with Chloe and Chuckie.

I would like to trade places with one of my cats, probably Chloe. Or maybe one of the kittens that frolic in the yard in the next block. They look like they have a lot of fun.

iPhones Forever

What’s a piece of technology you’re convinced will exist in 20 years?

I expect the iPhone will exist, in one form or another, in twenty years.

Mobile phones are part of the culture, to the point where people are moving away from land lines. People’s cell phones are their only phones, and with all the extra features of the iPhone, they have become personal computers in mini form.

IPhones are lifestyle aids. I use my phone for email, checking up on classes, surfing the Internet, playing solitaire, tracking my food intake and exercise, texting, and composing occasional blog entries. I do not use it as a phone much because of my hearing problem, but my hearing aids will connect to it and I will control them from the phone.

I don’t see much changing with the iPhone over 20 years. I could see it becoming a satellite phone, I could see more features set into it, but the form factor will stay largely the same and the functions will stay similar.

My Experiences vs. Myself

Do you think we’re shaped more by our experiences or by who we are?

When I first encountered this question, I unequivocally thought, “My experiences, of course!” I have had vivid, quirky experiences that have made me who I am today. Everything from playing with lion cubs to floating through a swift water simulation to being a (really tall) Santa’s elf for the school district and more!

But then I thought about the question again and realized, “I chose all those experiences. I took the trip to the Exotic Feline Rescue Center. I decided to experience the Swift Water course. I am that experiential person.”

I’m uncomfortable with believing in nature over nurture, which is the philosophical essence of this question. I am perturbed to think that I was born to choose vivid experiences. I don’t like to give that much power to an accident of birth. Yet I was born with bipolar genes — did they orient me to choose novel experiences?

Psychology tends to favor a model incorporating both nature and nurture. In the case of my personality, it’s covered in “traits and states” theory. About half of our personality is based on traits, or inborn tendencies (nature), while the other half is based on states, or the moods we are in (influenced by nurture). The specific personality trait is “tendency towards trying new things”, which is one of the five basic personality traits in the OCEAN model.

So the science says both, no matter what I think. I just prefer to credit my experiences.

Cassette Tapes

Which outdated technology do you miss the most, and why?

I miss cassette tapes.

The concept of recording songs off the radio is a lost phenomenon. Radio is almost a lost phenomenon at this point. All is now Spotify and Apple Music, and there’s no spontaneously hearing a song and recording it. Instead, I buy music off of Apple Music if I want it permanently or borrow it as long as I never leave Apple Music.

Mix tapes are not really a thing anymore. I can make a mix tape on Apple Music, but I can’t easily share it. I can share the playlist with someone, but they have to go and buy the music. I can’t share with someone who isn’t on Apple Music. I don’t know if Spotify is any different.

There was a certain democratization of music back in the days of cassette tapes. The quality of the music was poor when we recorded off the radio, but we didn’t really notice because of our lower expectations with AM radio.

I’m not one for nostalgia, and I know there are great advantages with services like Apple Music and Spotify, especially the sound quality. But I miss the old-fashioned mix tape and the heartfelt communication it represents.

Lifelong Learner

Are you a lifelong learner?

I am a lifelong learner. I have to be to do my job. Being a professor means having a body of knowledge and updating it so we can be experts.

Not me.

In addition, I am a voracious reader of articles. Some of what I read is really lowbrow, like those emotional heartbreak stories with a missing ending on Facebook. Others are informative stories about current events. And I will read anything medical I can get my hands on, and that’s how I know the cyclospora epidemic started with Taylor Farms’ bagged iceberg lettuce.

I want to learn calculus, the one class I nearly failed in college. I want to learn molecular biology, because I think it’s amazing that complex life came from one-celled organisms and my cells reflect that. I’d like to learn carpentry because I think my mother wanted me to marry a carpenter (didn’t happen, even though I’ve known a lot of people who did carpentry).

I don’t understand people who don’t want to learn. Curiosity is an innate human trait in most people, and I think we need to ignore our better nature if we decide not to learn.

A Matter of Heart

My husband will be getting a multiple bypass a week from tomorrow.

The development of this situation happened very quickly, or took years, depending on how you look at it. The heart blockages developed over several years, exacerbated by family history. How we found out about it has been a whirlwind of tests and doctor’s appointments,

Richard is young for this — he’s only 57. But that family history made it inescapable, I think. Despite the statins he has taken religiously for years, he has some arterial blockage, and open heart surgery is the best option.

I am dealing with this rather stoically. I think the medication I’m on helps me stay on an even keel. I’m a lot more helpful to him in a stoical mood than I would be with my mother’s way of dealing with medical emergencies — she would browbeat someone for being sick. (Honestly, you would think my broken leg was something I’d deliberately done to myself.) The day of, however, I will be covering up panic.

So I’m taking thoughts and prayers that all goes well. There will be pain (my husband admits he’s a wimp about pain — we’ll see) and recovery time (from what I hear, the cracked breastbone will require more recovery time than the heart) and I will be the responsible person for a while.

I no longer live in the best country in the world.

What’s a lesson you’ve learned recently that shifted your perspective?

When I was growing up, I thought the United States was the best place on Earth to live. Over the years, my perspective has shifted, and recently, it has shifted rapidly.

When I was young, the country was Fourth of July celebrations and ice cream parlors. I was obviously naive back then, because it also was racism and the Vietnam War. Those things were far away from the rural childhood of a perpetual optimist.

As I grew up, I saw the downsides, but I comforted myself by saying “At least we’re trying to be our best.” It was a comforting idea, and there was plenty of evidence. Even as recently as Obama’s election, there was room to hope that America stood for true equality, at least in its ideals.

With Trump being voted into office twice, I have no illusions anymore. His very campaign promise was to take away from the people his constituents couldn’t stand. The opposite of equality. He has fulfilled this promise in a thousand petty acts on the national and international levels. His definition of freedom is predicated on it being granted to his sycophants, white nationalists and supremacists. As a country, we are bullies. We are no longer the good guys.

I think about moving to Canada, but I don’t have the independent wealth I would need. I don’t have the skills they need and I am too close to retirement. I don’t know if a blue wave would be enough to restore the country. I doubt it — the hatred is still here, still will survive. I do not live in the best country in the world

My Summer is Dwindling Away

My summer is dwindling away, and what do I have to show for it?

Eleven internship visits, 4 classes basically set up, 16 chapters of PowerPoint revised, part of a novel, lots of proofreading/editing, one novel ready for release in October, another waiting on a cover before I ready it for release in January, another (a former Vella cliff-hanger story) that could be published if I get a cover made, six months worth of promotion on Loomly, a lot of rest.

I have about another month of summer, but I can see the ending. I am not sure if I’m prepared for fall semester, because I love the slower pace of summer, even when I get bored.

I’m here at Starbucks right now, trying to write or do something productive. I’m not feeling the novel right now, so I’m not quite sure what I am going to do, but it should be productive.

I ruined my 14-day writing streak yesterday, so I don’t count on doing this blogging daily. But I will do it as often as I can.

Sleep

Daily writing prompt
What’s one habit that has improved your life the most?

I know I talked about sleep hygiene the other day, but the habit that has improved my life the most has been the things I do to help me sleep.

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I was chronically sleep-deprived when younger, especially through college. Some of this has to do with being untreated bipolar and in hypomania; some of that has to do with being paranoid when I stayed at a boyfriend’s house because my mother would call around looking for me if I wasn’t home by 9. If I got four hours of sleep a night I’d be surprised.

When I was in graduate school, I walked in front of a car which was turning into traffic at a stop sign. If I weren’t chronically sleep-deprived, I think I would have seen the car in time and stepped back. I stepped back, but just a second too late, because I ended up with a badly broken leg.

Now, I work hard on getting enough sleep at night. I do not drink coffee after noon. I go to bed early, and spend at least a half hour before I sleep quietly with a sleep mask on. I don’t surf the internet on my phone right before I go to bed. I take my medication religiously. I have sleep meds I take when I think I am going to have a restless night.

My productivity depends on my sleep. My health depends on my sleep. My sleep depends on good habits.

Change of Scenery

I’m on a mini-retreat to Lincoln, NE, sitting in The Mill (a coffee shop) writing this. There is a farmer’s market setting up nearby and I’m thinking of wandering over there. The coffee is very good here, but I’m in danger of being overcaffeinated. Hope to get some writing done here.

I slept through the fireworks last night. Richard was watching them from the hotel room (we tend to rent from the top floors so we can watch fireworks). Apparently, there was lightning in with the fireworks. I’m sorry I missed that.

I like Lincoln. It’s quirky and cosmopolitan and laid back in the summer (I don’t go here during football season, when the stadium is the second-biggest city in the state during home games). We’re in the Haymarket neighborhood, which exudes cool.

Wish me luck — I’m going to try to do something productive!