What I’m learning in therapy

I’ve been going to therapy online to get over the uncomfortable feeling that I don’t know who I am now that I’m successfully getting treated medically for bipolar. I’ve had this nagging feeling for years.

What I have learned so far:

• I have good boundaries. But I have boundaries around my boundaries
• I believe (or have been led to believe) that my inner child is a monster
• I have walled off inner child from rest of me.

I don’t quite believe all of this. I believe it’s more nuanced, as if the inner child isn’t so much walled away but quarantined. I have a sense of myself as inner child but I don’t trust it. It’s probably right to not blindly trust its judgment, but I treat it as if it were my bipolar tendencies.

That’s a lot for three weeks, though..