Venting

I need to vent.

Something is really hinky with Amazon Kindle Scout, and I don’t know what or why.

It started on April 2nd, which was the day after my book was released on Kindle Scout. It was the same day that they announced that they wouldn’t be accepting any submissions after April 3rd because they were stopping the Kindle Scout program.

It was that next day that my data stopped.

I don’t know anyone else in the Kindle Scout process, so I don’t know how they’re faring with data. But I know that April 3 was the day that my data quit updating. In other words, on the first day, I had 254 visitors, on the second another 254, and no data (not zero, NO DATA) from then onward. which is suspicious in and of itself, because how could I have exactly 254 hits two days in a row?

If you voted for me, I don’t know if your vote counted. I don’t know if I’m getting any more votes. I don’t know if Amazon shut down the Kindle Scout program early, making us last entrants look like we’re being considered when we aren’t.

This looks, in a word, hinky.

This is what I received when I wrote them about the malfunctioning site:

Hello Lauren,

Thanks for you for letting us know about the issue. We are looking into the matter and will get back to you as soon as possible.

Rest assured that this will not affect your book’s chances of getting reviewed by the Kindle Scout team and potentially selected for publication. If your book has been shortlisted, you’ll receive a personalized manuscript feedback report from us when your campaign has ended, and once the publishing decision has been made.

There’s some interesting things implied/not implied in this email:

  1. “We are looking into the matter and will get back to you as soon as possible.” I sent this note twice; I got this same exact copy twice. 
  2. Related to this, this is AMAZON we’re speaking about. Amazon didn’t get where it is by losing data.
  3. If it’s only my book that’s getting data silence, are the votes out there somewhere or have they disappeared? Will I get penalized for those lost votes?
  4. “…will not affect your book’s chances of getting reviewed…” Does this mean they’ll review it without votes? Does it mean they’re not counting votes for anyone anymore?
  5. If they’re not counting/showing data counts purposely, is this a breach of contract?
Needless to say, I am not happy. Somewhere inside me is a grouchy little kid whose slightly older sister got all the nice things while she got the exasperated shrug from mom. That grouchy little kid believes that life is out to screw her over. So I’m fighting the good fight here — but I’m really grouchy.
And what do I do now that this route to publishing is closed to me?

Odds and Ends

I just submitted an empty post. OOPS. Let’s fix this.

I’m here again thinking of the NaNoWriMo method of writing — let the words flow freely; take time later to edit. I’ll be honest, I don’t know any other way to write. I try to wordsmith on the run, and that is largely a function of being a person who likes colorful words. For editing, I tend to have to make two passthroughs in the hope of being thorough enough; when I’m very familiar with something, it’s hard for me to see flaws in plot or characterization.

I sometimes wonder what will make me feel like a real writer, short of being published. I have to seriously consider that again, now that I am getting agent rejections on Voyageurs. I need to feel some sense of accomplishment, and “I wrote a book” isn’t enough. I’m thinking about how I can write just for me and feel that sense of accomplishment.

I literally do not know what’s happening with my Kindle Scout campaign. I have seen two days of data. I am missing the last four days. I wrote a letter to them twice, and they assure that this will not affect my eligibility if I get enough nominations, but what if the missing data includes the magic 48 hours of hot and trending? If they can’t get it back, it will certainly affect my eligibility, unless they want to automatically slot me in. That would be nice.

For what it’s worth, my Kindle Scout campaign can be found here:

https://kindlescout.amazon.com/p/1KM8I0ZK97R9J/

If you’re so inclined, nominate it in case Amazon isn’t losing the data here…

Day 6 Camp NaNo — and a frustrating mystery

Day 6 Camp NaNo: I’ve made 10,000 works thus far, and hope to get another 2000 today. I’m pacing myself the way I would a regular NaNo, which is a 50,000-word month. Do I worry about writing too fast? Not really — the first draft is there to get the ideas down on paper, and then there’s editing. Lots of editing. Sometimes you realize that no amount of editing will save your book, such as when I finally gave up on Gaia’s Hands after the Kindle Scout campaign. Maybe I’ll write that whole book over from scratch some day. 

The mystery has to do with the fact that my Kindle Scout stats haven’t updated in three days. So last time I saw stats, I had 524 hits and no hours in hot and trending. That’s what I have now, because three days’ data is not showing up. Someone answered my email and said, “Thank you for reporting the problem, we will look into it.”
So I’m a little annoyed and a little paranoid (see what I did there?) If the data didn’t transfer is one thing, but if the data went missing entirely, I may have made the hot and trending list and never known it, in which case I would not win to the next step and I would not get published under their plan when I rightfully deserved it. 
So Dear Universe, cut me a break. 

Tiny thought

In my heaven, we would all understand there are different types of love, and we would define ourselves in terms of how much we could love. We would understand different types of love enough that we wouldn’t try to make everything romantic, and we would not get jealous because we would respect boundaries. But love would be there, and we would be allowed it.

Update: Day 5 Nano — and a little talk about the weather

First, the weather. Today will be 60 degrees. Tomorrow it’s supposed to snow — about an inch. Saturday — about an inch. Sunday — 1-3 inches. In April. I have planted peas and lettuce, and they’re sleeping in their plant beds. The daffodils will pop up in the snow and shiver. WHO ORDERED THIS WEATHER?!

Oh, the weather outside is frightful,
but the fire is so delightful
It’s the middle of April, so
No to snow, no to snow, no to snow!

A friend pointed out that this snow precludes Missourians’ favorite (heavily ironic) seasonal weather — tornadoes. I commented that there’s nothing keeping us from having a Snownado.

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I’m keeping up with my personal pace of 2000 words, which would get me done with Camp NaNo in half the time. I’m doing it because camp cuts into finals week, and I get really busy then.

My favorite description so far: When Grace describes a well-renowned American hotel’s color scheme as “Crayola factory, garden party version”. Honestly, I used to want to be able to afford this hotel until I saw the pictures. I’ll just buy the travel trailer when I get rich.

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I would be remiss if I didn’t mention the Kindle Scout campaign. I don’t know how well I’m doing, because I haven’t had a refresh on stats since yesterday morning. But I still welcome you to nominate me and spread the word:

https://kindlescout.amazon.com/p/1KM8I0ZK97R9J/

Day 4 Camp NaNo — and musings

In Day 4 of NaNo, I will be writing more of the logistical stuff — Ok, you’ve just now planned to take on the bad guys, how are you going to do this? Who will work with you? Who’s going to derail your plan? And will the bickering couple end up in bed again?

I’m about 30,000 words away from the end game, so I need to make this good and not just rush to the finish line. I have to make good use of the Prodigy family who so far have only existed to make Ichirou and Grace question whether to confront Greg and Ayana’s rather overprotective stance (this is YA*, after all).  They have a world to save — almost literally; a plot at the United Nations promises to destabilize the world order.

In a way, however, I don’t have to solve all these problems now. I can write in my 2000-word stretches, put together a book, and then edit it. My dream is to (as I’ve said before) hire a professional developmental editor — largely because it’s really hard to edit my own work. The sentences’ pattern gets stuck in my head like the sounds of the train clattering down the track while you’re half-asleep in a sleeper car. (Note to self: Win the lottery, build a greenhouse, visit somewhere with real train service and sleeper cars.)
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My Kindle Scout book has had more hits in the past two days than the previous one had after 30 days. Thanks!

Again, my Kindle Scout campaign is still running until May 1 here:

https://kindlescout.amazon.com/p/1KM8I0ZK97R9J

And remember I love you.

*YA = Young Adult, which is booksellers’ slang for the genre where the protagonist is somewhere between 16 and 19.

To All My Lurkers

Dear Lurker:

I don’t know who you are except by your country of origin, although even that could be spoofed. You read my blog for reasons I may never know (unless you’re a bot, in which case I can guess that you don’t really read my blog).

I will admit that I want to know who you are. First of all, I want to know for the same reasons that children launch a note in a bottle into the ocean and someone finds it on the shore 500 miles away and sends the child back a note. Or maybe it’s like sending Flat Stanley to your favorite aunt halfway across the country and she sends it on a series of local adventures and takes pictures. I have people from Turkmenistan and Russia and Portugal and Peru, and I want to see who I’ve rubbed elbows with — digitally at least.

I also want to know you because I want to hear your stories. My life is measured in others’ stories and I have had the pleasure of hearing many excellent stories. You have stories with power and poetry, or with humor, or with pathos — and I would love to hold those gifts in my hands.

Love,

Lauren

Day 3 Camp NaNo — serious editing out.

Day 3:  I’m writing the last 30,000  words of a 80,000 word book, and I am so far off my outline now that I’m not sure about this book at all. (goes back and makes minor changes to book).

Day 3: I deleted some of the more hokey parts that had developed. My problem is that I loved Agatha Christie’s The Seven Dials Mystery, where seven sleuthing young adults in a secret society solve a murder. I had created a secret society myself of Prodigies protecting the wider band of Prodigies, complete with name and emblem. Too hokey for me, and thus I’ve lost a thousand words of progress.

However I’m one day ahead of writing, so I’m not really panicked. It’s just part of the process.

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Thank you for all of you who visited my book and boosted the signal yesterday! The book hasn’t made the hot list yet, but the hits to my site are gratifying. Remember that you can’t just visit the site — you must nominate the book for it to progress.

Here’s the link:
https://kindlescout.amazon.com/p/1KM8I0ZK97R9J/

Keep reading — I love to see you show up!

Day 2: So far, I’ve written 105 words of my allotted 1000 per day. My brain is a bit sluggish today; lots of external turmoil and lack of coffee is contributing to this state of being.

Having a word goal, though, is a great incentive, as is having a group full of people in my “cabin” — my group of fellow writers in Camp NaNo — yes, Camp NaNo is a deliberate kitschy metaphor. I might manage to finish Prodigies yet.
Here’s an excerpt of Voyageurs, my Kindle Scout entry at https://kindlescout.amazon.com/p/1KM8I0ZK97R9J/ .Boost the signal if you can.
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“Why did you make me jump right then?” I hissed at Berkeley. “We could lose Kat!”, by which I meant “I could lose Kat.”

“Because Kat deserves the best life possible, whether or not it involves you. The worst part is that, if she disappears and goes her own way, we won’t even remember her.” Berkeley sighed. “Besides, we need to change back the changed futures or else timelines become unstable.”

“I don’t want to forget her,” I insisted. “Especially as I plan to dance with her tonight.”

“In that outfit? They’ll never let you in.”  Then Berkeley popped out of the scene.

I suspected he placed me at the right place and time to see how events unfolded, but I would choose the right moment. I staked out a spot near the front facade of the Nelson-Atkins Museum, which had been torn down in 2045 to make room for a new public safety complex, one that could house armored personnel carriers. I could tell from the elegantly black-clad doormen and the young women in petticoated dresses that I would never get into the ball. So I had to think quickly of an alternative. 

I wasn’t given much time. I looked up and saw Kat, in a flowing yellow dress with drop shoulders and a light shawl. She walked alongside Harold, who looked a little younger than he had when I had met him. Harold, of course, wore a black tuxedo.

Kat didn’t sound enamored as much as she sounded vaguely vexed. “So why, Harold? I don’t like to dress up, I don’t like to dance with people, and I don’t like you.” Interesting words for someone who was in love with Harold.

“It’s an experiment about time. I’ll leave you here, Kat, and you see if you can get in. I’ll come back later and dance with you.” I realized I had an opening, but I had to act quickly. As soon as Harold had bounced away, I ran up to the dark-haired young woman with the long white lock of hair hanging into her face. 

Fifteen-year-old Kat looked me up and down and raised her eyebrows. “Hmm,” she said. “Did you want me to give you oral in the alley? That’s twenty.”

I felt sadness wash over me. “No, not at all. I want to dance with you.” 

“Nothing for money?” she asked skeptically.

“Nothing for money.” I meant to keep this child safe; realizing that this teen was my Kat left me confused and queasy. I determined I would dance with her as if she were the cousin I never had, dance enough to tell her that she could dream.

Young Kat stared through me with those scornful ice-blue eyes. If I failed, there would be more pain, more cynicism in this child, and in the adult Kat. 

“Would you like to dance with me?” I bowed to her.

“I won’t go in there,” she responded. “Harold will have to drag me inside if he wants me there.”

“No, here. On the sidewalk.” 

She looked at me, and the shrewdness dropped. “I put my hands on your shoulders, right?” 

“Yes, and I put my hands around your waist like this.” 

(“Mom, Dad, what are you doing?” I asked as my parents whirled around the sparsely furnished dining room.

“It’s called dancing. We used to do this when we were young. We do this in memory of the culture we have lost.” My dad spun my mother around, and she laughed. “Would you like to learn?”

And my beautiful red-haired mother taught me the box step that night.)

The young woman took to the box step immediately as we danced to music that maybe she remembered in her head, because of course she led. She stood a little shorter than my Kat did, a little skinny and fragile from her life on the street. 

I whispered, “Would you like to find a place to live?”

“I knew there was a price,” she muttered, and I wanted to cry. 

“No. No price. Just a Traveller who needs to teach you how to be strong and fly.” 

I thought she would reject this plea as well, but she stopped dancing and mumbled, “Take me there.” 

I put my hands around her waist and she mine. Then I bounced to 2065 and then to 1994 and  Berkeley’s familiar porch down the road from the museum. When a younger, just-balding Berkeley opened the door, I said, “This young Traveller needs a place to live. She’s been on the street, and she’s in grave danger.”