Second Best

My new computer feels just like my old computer, which is understandable because it’s the same model, only a bit more souped up. I’m paying attention to its speed, which should be faster with a higher processor. I have to find a test to check out the video card.

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The new, the shiny, the improved attract us as consumers. Computer manufacturers play upon this and make incremental changes to their products, charging high prices for a product not significantly different than the previous one. How much better is an i9 processor than an i7?

I wanted the shiniest and newest, until I realized that it would cost over twice as much as this one, very gently used, souped-up computer.

Expectations

I’m down to twenty readers, but I am assured that all of you are real people instead of bots or that the CIA is no longer reading this for hidden messages — just kidding. I think. Thank you for following me.

I’m at a loss as to how to get more readers. This is my big worry about embarking in self-publishing as well. In a world where everything is screaming for attention, how does one actually get attention? Quality is not enough, as is evidenced by many industries — music, books, movies — where the hyped gets more interest than the small shining gem of a creation.

What’s enough? I’ve never stopped to consider this.

Expectations have a way of expanding. At the beginning of this journey, I didn’t know if I could write 50,000 words. Then, as I reached that point, I expected to be able to write whole novels which grew to 80,000 words or more. Then I expected to get published, which hasn’t happened yet but could happen if I self-published. Yet now I expect to have more than twenty people read my blog. And I expect them to comment occasionally.  

 Maybe I should scale my expectations down. Maybe twenty faithful readers are enough. Maybe self-publishing, with its potential of only a handful of readers, is enough.